Another Year...Another Story

Well, it had been 5 days after my 23rd birhtday and i still feet numb. Don't really know why. Don't think its the besday blues or something like that. But maybe because i'm not where i thought i will be on this particular age. I used to think i've got a decent job and providing for my mum some luxuries i really really wish to. But, yeah, life's unexpected eh? At least i'm earning a free allowance that is not taxable (thanks to my tax's lecturer).

Actually i'm not looking for any surprise or calls or smses wishing me well, happiness, long life and you name it. But those calls and smses did arrived and thank you to whom had remembered this ordinary girl's birthday. I'm happy and grateful with the thoughts and i will not be on my feet and throw a tantrum if i don't get any of it. But it strucked me to the heart when a very dear friend of mine (used to be) send a sms written 'Happy Birthday'. Just that. Only that. Ok, maybe she's in hurry or something wrong with her keypad. It hurts but not so. Few minutes later she called (i'm surprised). Wanna know the line? "Happy birthday". Thats it. Thats all. I don't even have the chance to say anything. That cuts me so deep. wonder how people can change so much. How people can be so mean. If i'm no longer the friend she prefered but how did she deal with the memories we had together that she can be so cruel? It better if she didn't call and smsed me at all. At least that will not hurt.

Anyway, other than that tragedy (hehe can you call it a tragedy?) other things seems to be ok. I love to have my birthday quietly rather than put up a party. But my family did had a barbeque last monday to celebrate my mom, yob, nyah and my birthdays (which all fall in March). It will be better and more meaningfull if abah is still with us. But i'm not regretting he's not being with us anymore because he had done many special things for me on my birthday before and i think it will be selfish to ask for more. Having him as my father and mak as my mother is the best thing that had happen to me in my life and no other ocassion will take over their place in my heart.

For me, no matter how old you are, the best way to celebrate your birthday is to share it with your family because they are where you started life and they are the place you learn life and they are where your destination lies. Happy birthday to me!